Whut Thee Phuk Do I Do?
Does this make sense to you? Can you relate? Thru the last three almost four years I have learned to be more assertive. more calm in response, although some things still shock the shit out of my anxiety like marriage for one. this word has had such an effect and my visions of past events, yes, PAST (i shouldn't be) but i do go there. and i know i need not to. there are subjects more touchy than others when communicating with a kane and finances is one. and then there are those topics that he is 'safe' to speak about around him. i mean when will i feel comfortable enough to know that YOU are completely with me WITHOUT using me in ANY type of way. and although these last couple years have been hard, I have grown. For us. For Q. it sucks to constantly feel sad vs. accomplished after communicating sensitive topics. on a scale of 1 - 10 in communication we are about a 6. i mean, we need work. and maybe i need to rethink my questions... i asked him 'will i be paying f