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Aloha All, This Kakahiaka I wake up feeling the way I do sometimes... Confused and unsure about what went on in my foster life to get me here. And my feelings, they are geared toward my foster Ohana. Mainly, my foster mother. I think back after waking this way many times throughout my Life and wonder how things gotten so bad with us by asking myself time and time again; "how did we get here", "what did I do so bad that makes you hate me" and even wondering if she wanted me at all. The conclusion always is the same... No. Truly, she never wanted me. She was only in it for the money and control. And once she found out I couldn't be controlled, she found ways to retaliate in her own scandal way. You see, throughout my life there were always moments of asking myself these same questions. One question in particular; "Am I Ever Going to be Good Enough for her/them?" sticks in my mind. Because over the years, my childhood and life in my 20

I have always wondered what others perceptions on Intimacy is. In a Generation where grabbing pussies & racy talk about Wahines are the norm, How Do You Define True Intimacy?    I have discovered thru my time on this wonderful planet that the Vision Behind Intimacy has been misconstrued. It has not only gone way out of proportion but its also a concern for parents raising Daughters of their own. Intimacy doesnt have to be this racy, raunchy thing. Intimacy is time. Intimacy is Patience. Intimacy is Connecting On A Way Different Level than just Surface Thoughts.    This Season on Talk Life Radio I will be talking about How to Heal Behind Intimacy. Many of us are like Myself, coming from a background where being lusted, groped on, taunted & teased became a way of life as a child into my teen years. In my twenties, I Had To Find Myself.    Finding MY True Intimacy took a while but when you start getting comfortable with yourself enough to Masturbate & feel grea

Aloha Kakahiaka All this early Friday Morning. SO as many of you know or will know, I am a Veteran & Survivor of many traumas in my life. I wake up here and there with different moods because of my vivid dreams of insanity. Many times its irritating to come out of such sleep but I'm getting better. I just had a dream. It was confusing and sad at the same time. There was a empty house at first and myself and my fiance were getting ready to go somewhere important. THEN, everything switched. It was like people, people I didn't even know, all around me. In the Living room, behind the walls, in hiding spots in the house, the hall ways etc. And then another part of the dream added babies. I'm waling thru the hallway with all these people ignoring me as I ask"where is Sirquon? We have to go?". And it was like no one was listening to me or hearing me. It was as if I wasn't even there. Throughout my dream i got frustrated and then sad because i felt he, Sirqu

Aloha All reading this. It has been one heck of a day! I got a lot accomplished though. Yey me. BUT! There were certain things that kinda got to me, I Prayed for and let go. One thing that gets to me is the ignorance in our Media. SOOOOOO much of the Media in the US has overpoured to other countries with the same nonsense going on. Its an EVERY day thing just having to wake up and find out our Dumbass President said more stupid shit to raise more tempers and hate and literally push policies and bills that are no where near for the "people" of America. What else gets me is that people, such as Kellyanne Conway & the rest of his wonderful aristocrats, stay defending him by overtalking & redirecting questions into stupid facts which sound pretty aweful because like myself, I am SURE many Americans out there are STILL waiting for you to Answer The Question. Not deflect with the psycho motive attitude of control & condescending smiles on your FACE! And THEN!!!!

Aloha Nui Loa All! And WELCOME to my New Blog Page Lets Talk Life. You know, its pretty funny that I named it that because My Radio show Talk Life Radio started Originally named Lets Talk Life ! And now, 5 years later, 1 relationship Obtained & Sustained, 1 child born, 1 on the way, I HAVE to say that LIFE Has been CRAZY BLESSED! I say that in a pause only because i know of all the things i went thru my start in Cali. From the Opportunist & Backstabbing room-mates, to the Ex-Sister-in-Law that kicked me out and ended up Homeless for a week, to Gainng the Ambition to Get My Own place and to Now... I finally have gained a Ohana worth Loving, Smiling & Striving for EACH and EVERY day. And the great part... I get to take this journey with them! And they are All Mine! This is just coming from a lil Lena that is loving the life of Giving Love. Especially When Its Someone Who Deserves It All. Yes, I Found him and He has found me. Now, we are building our Radio Empire Together