If I Had It My Way

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If I Had IT My Way we would connect in our bed
no worries in the world
the bed is where all spiritual vibes lay their head
if i had it my way we would wake up skin to skin
no worries in the world
start the day out with a good Vibes within
if had it my way arms would wrap around me for comfort not pity
no worries in the world
no waking up feeling shitty
If i had it my way i would smile thru the day
no worries in the world
no ‘somethings wrong with her again’ they say
If i had it my way i would never feel lonely
no worries in the world
many would say she is our only
if i had it my way i would be free
no worries in the world
pressures of being me in life would not sting like a bee
if i had it my way i would dance all day
no worries in the world
I envision my hips and arms in a gentle sway
if i had it my way my traumas would disappear
no worries in the world
look it is lena, i am back, i am here
if i had it my way my mind would feel relief
no worries in the world
no fighting between fake facade & true beliefs
if i had it my way i would take it all back
no worries in the world
because i need to feel free like that
if i had it my way he would get me
no worries in the world
crossed wires would never be an issue only glee
if i had it my way he would know how to make things better
no wires in the world
never thinking of suicide & letters
if i had it my way
if i had it my way
if i had it my way

one day

if i had it my way



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