My 'American' Tale

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       Lost & Insecure. Americans we are. In one way or another you are insecure too. Yes. You. And it is okay. A Healthy Amount of insecurity is okay and I know that sounds weird but it makes sense to me. We are born into a world where people are seperated on the daily, mass media has warped americans brains with all the psychological warfare they play. It is a complete joke really. It is without a doubt I am Blessed to be currently in a Healthy relationship where I feel secure in saying... Having a little insecurity in life is okay. 

Lets Talk Story:
SO!
I was taught about "love" at a very young age. 6. To be exact. Being touched in a cardboard box and having someone tell you that "this is what people do when they love each other". So I left thinking... 'if what i felt tonight the same as what i see on the screen'. And im thinking back to the times I seen the porn on my Foster Military Fathers tv in their bedroom. The sex domain. Where "it" happens. And it didnt take me long to figure out that the foster parents get it in no matter what.

*i remember being at a truck stop... where we were I cant quite say but all i know is my seat i was sitting in started jiggling. like... my seat just started moving. And I heard the movement in the back from the parents. It did not take me long by then to figure out what they were up to.*

But being taught about love in this way makes you think of how many others probably get or got raised by the over-sexed muse-infused mentalities out there. Many stay insincere and insecure in their own skin as well. Why do you think they, whoever 'they' in your eyes are, want us to feel bad and angry about everything. Especially when it comes to money... Oh Lordie. The insecurities behind the different "lackings" individuals feel they have on the daily is amazing. And I am also guilty for falling for this standard or way of living. It is fine with them. Whoever 'them' are in your eyes. But it is and never will be fine with me to be led on by such a insecure race. 

When it comes to Love & Relaationships, the reason why i feel it is okay to have a little insecurity in life is because eventually you will meet someone, such as I did, that helps you to feel secure in the insecure ways you held. No one wants to be that insecure person in the crowd. The funny part is, we all are! Building a relationship that assists in helping my insecurities is osmething I never thought was possible. But given the amount of prayers dreams & visions of my perfect match, I also spoke into existence the qualities of my fiance by saying out loud what i did want. 

Viola! 

He is here. Q. Call it a Cinderella story if you will. And as a Veteran. It shows My American Tale has a Hauoli Story after all. Despite what is going on in our country we all have a "American" story. At least I can say I found Love. Finally. And it is just the beginning to another Chapter of Our Journey. Found & Together.


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